Wow! ... September 17, 2010

Can you believe how long it's been?! Wow-za! The last time I was on here I was headed to LA. Well turns out at the beginning of my wonderful trip I got an offer for a new job! And guess what?! I'm here now :) Its great and I love it all. I might not be an engineer but I would rather be an administrative assistant any day. Hahah.

What else... I am happily in a relationship with my Asian. A few ups and downs but nothing drastic...just caring about each other so much and missing each other all the time. We're falling in love. Who knows...we could be engaged within a few years :)

The roommate has moved out and I'm looking for a replacement....anyone interested?

It's kinda lonely by myself but thank goodness I have a job now. It keeps me occupied most of the day then when I come home...I clean, walk my pup, eat and sleep. Barely any time to do anything else....I'm hoping to put working out in there somewhere...Just doesn't seem like I ever have enough time.

Well back to work...I guess I should really change my description of the blog...I now have a job, boyfriend and not really going through a crisis anymore....Hmmmm..

Nothing too new....August 13, 2010

Well it's Friday the 13th...what will today bring us? I hope no bad luck. The week has flown by...I haven't done much but lay around and watch movies, apply for jobs, eat and sleep. I made egg rolls for the Asian one night and he cooked me some Pho another. It was delicious. This is our first weekend together and I'll be spending it with him at his house...all weekend. Yes there will be an over night bag... :) We're going to the art museum tomorrow morning, sushi for lunch, maybe some shopping and then dinner with his intern. Tonight I think we'll just relax and go watch a movie. It's nice having someone to hang out with. Before all I did was sit at home with my boyfriend and watch movies and do nothing. My dilemma now is what to do about my pup. My roommate refuses for me to take him with me for the whole weekend but he won't be home tomorrow to watch the little guy. So what to do...bring him with me tonight for the whole weekend, leave him and come get him tomorrow night or just punch my roommate in the mouth. Oh my options... I'll figure it out I guess.

Great news! I have a trip to LA planned. Tickets booked and ready to go! My grandpa's really sick and my dad really wants me to visit since he always mentions me. I love my grandpa...he's always been so kind to me...not to any of my other cousins though. Oh well...I get to see my cousins and uncles and go shopping with my mom! How exciting. Kind of a mini vacation.

Well that's all I got...guess I'll keep you posted on my wonderful weekend with my Asian :)

Success!?....August 9, 2010

I would have to say it was another successful float trip! Lots of drinking...and drama...what drama you might ask? Well where should I start? Friday was fun driving down to the float...it took forever but two good friends in the car made the long trip bearable. Once we got down there it was the start to drinking. Everyone was there including some of my old students and some friends from college. We drank until who knows when. I shared a tent with my buddy thinking nothing of it but of course what does he do? Tell me he likes me and asks why I don't like him...should I have just told him to read my blog? Haha..no. I guess what went through my mind was that I didn't want to lose a good friend and hurt anyone's feelings...so what did I do you ask? Beat around the bush basically. I thought he understood that I didn't want him as a boyfriend and just wanted to be friends....again we were drunk so I don't think he got the memo. So the start of drama...caused by me :)

Oh but there's more...so the float trip was starting in a few hours since I tried to tell my friend all night that I wasn't interested. So the float starts and we're ready to go. What did I decide was a good idea to bring on the float...Absolut Vodka for shots...yep...just plain vodka...bad idea. So we drink and drink and every time we stopped on the sandbar I sang "Shots Shots Shots" so the girls did shots. Fun until I decided to get emotional because some jerk said I was dumb. Yep don't call an engineer dumb...just cause your fake boobed girl friend is an idiot and no one likes her doesn't mean the rest of the girls on the trip are. Stupid balding douche. NO ONE LIKES YOU not even in your own fraternity! Alright sorry I never got to punch him on the trip, had to get that out. So to sum it up...I lost a pair of sunglasses, my tank top, 2 lighters, 2 packs of cigarettes, whatever was in 3 dry bags (and the dry bags), a cooler with food, clothes and beers...but it was still a success right?! HAHAH.

The ride back was also superb. We picked up one of the fraternity boys since his ride left the night before but somehow they left his wallet and phone in someone else's car but didn't remember to mention it to anyone. Awesome. Good thing a lot of us stopped my Jack in the Box that morning so we all worked together to get this kids stuff back. Well I felt horrible to the tacos and potato wedges were not having it in my stomach...no worries though there were no pit stops for throwing up on the trip. We left the camp around 8 and I didn't get home until 3:30....it should only be a 4 hour trip....yes it was uncomfortable because me and my girlfriend had to sit in the back on only one seat since we packed 4 peoples things in the car...including 4 coolers. We got lost too since for some reason the driver decided to not listen to his navigation. Yikes! Its ok we all made it home safe and sound.

I then managed to relax for a few hours then I had to go pick up the Asian at his friend's house and drive him home. His friend lives 10 minutes away from my house so it wasn't a big deal, plus I hadn't seen him in a whole week so I had to see him last night. Ahh I met his Asian brother last night too...he's a short man, ha. We had Chinese food because we were too lazy to do anything else and then off to bed. It was a short and sweet visit but great to see him. And that is the conclusion to my weekend. Now off to get things done...maybe..

How to lose a guy over texts...August 5, 2010

Oh it's possible to lose a guy or two over texts and I'm sure I pushed a lot of buttons last night. People's buttons...not the phone buttons... Ha anyways... after having a wonderful day of cleaning, cooking a steak dinner and then proceeding to drink the whole bottle of wine...this is when the texting went wrong. So of course what do I do after I start drinking wine?....get on facebook to chat with people. I usually try to catch one of my bi-curious friends on there to talk to because he's a riot. He has many interesting stories that crack me up and I told him his life is way more interesting and should be in a blog but ehh I don't think he'll do it. Oh well. Anyways back to what was happening...so during facebook chatting I was also thinking that I should text an old friend and also text the asian...oh and the texting wars begun.

My old friend is actually someone I was dating before the Asian...old buddy from high school...very sweet guy and well we started talking and hitting it off and considered the whole dating thing...didn't hear from him in a few days and then met the Asian...sooo it was basically history...right? No I have to bring it up like an asshole. I asked him via text..."Thought we were gonna try the dating thing out" and he was more confused then anything....of course why wouldn't you be...it's like a blast from the past...by the end of this mess he said "call or text when you're in the mood for dating?" exact words with punctuation...what? And that was it...I texted back but no reply...weird. He probably fell asleep.

So what did I mess up with the Asian...probably everything. He's on vacation right now and warned me that he probably wouldn't have much time to talk...yep what do I do? Get irrational, emotional and crazy. Awesome...who wants to date the Crasian! Anyways he was trying to be so sweet with the "I miss you, don't worry we'll see each other soon" blah blah oh no I guess something clicked in my head and I was like lets just cut things off. So I texted "yeah...this might not work out. I'll just cut it off now. Good luck with everything. It was good while it lasted. Have fun." hmmm PSYCHO! What is wrong with me. I mean he didn't even do anything wrong. He even told me exactly what he was doing...yep I hate being a girl...oh and then he was still so sweet he was like "I can't believe you said that" and then "well I hope you have a good night, I will for sure call you tomorrow"....ugh what a nice person. I suck.

So now comes the waiting game...who's gonna call me today and will my old friend really want to try the dating thing? Oh no, I've stirred up a good pot of "I'm gonna get my ass in trouble"....until next time...float trip this weekend! I'll try posted tomorrow but no promises...if not tomorrow, Monday!

Confusion...August 3, 2010

Oh my life is getting boring again. It used to be fun dating around and trying to find the right person but now I guess I'm close to finding the right one. Maybe...I'm actually thinking about being single again. Taking it really slow with the Asian or dropping it completely. Is that a horrible idea when he could be the possible one? Ehh probably. I just can't put my finger on it but I feel like there could be someone else out there...someone that likes hockey, spongebob, action movies and Law and Order SVU. I mean really? Is that too much to ask? All I get from the Asian is the action movies part...boo. But then again should we have our differences to make a good couple.

Ahhh yes this is why the title today is confusion...I'm going crazy and being irrational, why? Why do you think a girl is irrational only a week out of a month? Exactly. I'm not even making sense to myself. I'm just a mess as always but now I'm just thinking that maybe I need to test out the waters for a longer amount of time. Or it could be that the Asian is out of town and I have nothing to do. I don't know. All I know is that I don't know if I'm truly happy with my decision and with my life.

I think the biggest part is me not being happy with my life. I need a job and I can't get one. I'm so discouraged. Companies don't like to see that a kid fresh out of college can't keep a stable job in a year...or even two jobs...geez. What to do? I don't know...I can only collect unemployment for so long...and I guess back to retail? I could try to be a manager at a store in the mall or something but I would hate the hours. I'm thinking secretary or assistant would work? What a mess...all I want to do is be a mechanical engineer and there is nothing out there for me, or no one that needs me. UGH! Oh well enough of this complaining and being sad for myself....lunch then pool time and hopefully some trivia tonight to cheer me up!

Testing out the Waters...Don't judge me...July 28, 2010

Oh what an interesting Tuesday. I did my daily task of feeding my friend's cat then off to the pool. I laid around there for a few hours and then got to thinking...Is the Asian right for me? Well I received a text from an old friend and we decided what's the harm in grabbing a drink. Well lets say we had some history but I thought nothing of it. We talked and laughed and drank. Then, he asked me to go back to his place to watch the rest of the baseball game. It was still early so I said why not. Harmless right...well...I'll leave that up to everyone's imagination.

By the end of the night around 10:30 or so I was drunk and knew that I hadn't eaten...good thing I had a safety bag of cheezits in my purse. So I ate those and felt a lot better...I looked around and looked at my friend and smiled and said I can't sit here knowing that we both have people we care about somewhere else...so I left and the only thing I knew to do was to go see my Asian. I called him and told him I was headed up there. He was not happy with me but he still wanted me to come over. So I did and we stayed up all night talking. But then the talking lead to me telling him..."Get your penis off a pedistool" ...and lets just say that doesn't help anything...especially when I was drunk and he was sober. I guess I didn't run him off last night because he said tonight was my night...I guess we have a date. Hope I get flowers! Ha...probably not. Oh well.

Mondays...July 27, 2010

I now have a routine when I wake up at the boys house...I make his bed every morning. Is that weird? Ehh I thought it was nice. Well he had jury duty so no work for him but sitting and waiting at a court house. Well turns out he got rejected and was not going to be on the jury so we decided to hang out. Was it a good idea to ask him to come over? Ummm it was right around lunch time and I saw that my roommate did not take his lunch box to work...uh oh... so I frantically called the roomie and mentioned that I had people over. Yep he's very antisocial and hates to come home to a house with even one new person in it. Weird. So he decided to just go to T-Bell for lunch and I had the house to myself...kinda. I forgot that my neighbor was coming over to use my computer but she was leaving at 3 for work anyways.

So after a long while the Asian finally gets to my house. We sit around and eat lunch and try to decide what to do. So after my neighbor leaves we go to an outdoor mall and walk around. Then we were so parched we thought margaritas at 4:30 was a brilliant idea? After a pitcher of those we went back to my place and hung out by the pool for an hour or so and then went to dinner.

It was a great day of just hanging out, holding hands and getting to know each other more. Well after my all day drunkenness I decided to text him about something he said. He mentioned the word girlfriend and my name in one sentence. I blew it off at the time but once the alcohol hit I needed to know what that was all about. So he called and we talked about it. I guess he thinks its time we move to the next step and I told him NO...I told him it was too soon and I wasn't ready to jump into another relationship. He's also never had a long term relationship so I don't know. So I reassured him that we're still fine but I didn't want a label on it until I knew that everything was back to normal in my life, like not having my ex as a roommate. So that's that...I am still single and I'm just not sure about jumping into another relationship. What to do...what to do...